It has come clear to me over the last few days that I am not meant to let go of blogging – just of this particular blog. This blog has become too unfocused: I have lost my way as a writer. The focus has been too diffuse: what is it? To help people grow? It has too many threads: there’s ecstatic dancing, there’s bipolar disorder, there’s general inspiring stuff. It’s all too much – no wonder it has started to feel to me less like a joy, a creative contribution to the world, and more like a burden.
I will peel off from this blog the two clear special-interest topics – ecstatic dancing and bipolar disorder. They will each have a clear focus, a specific niche. The goals will be more modest, more contained. Not “I can help anybody grow”, but “If you have an interest in this specific area, this blog could potentially be useful (or fun) for you.
The ecstatic dance blog – “Dance Integrity: Ecstatic dance through the eyes of one dancer” will benefit from the kind of very personal, journalistic writing that is my forte and gift. It’s meant to be a telling of what these dances are like for me. It will cover the free-form improvisational dances sponsored by the Asheville Movement Collective, the weekly men’s ecstatic dances sponsored by Steven Jones, and the Asheville contact improvisation scene, sponsored by the Asheville Jam. So far, this blog has a URL (dancingintegrity.com) but no contact. I’ll get to work on it next week – will peel off from this blog the stuff I have written here about dance, add a couple of pieces I have written more recently, and then go from there.
The bipolar blog – “Bipolar Integrity” will be comprised of my own experiences as a survivor of bipolar disorder, along with my understandings (shaped not just by my own experience with the disease, but also by 20 years of practice as a Ph.D. clinical psychologist) of what causes it and how to heal it – how to integrate these two different parts of us that tend not to talk with each other. This blog is intended for people who like me are struggling with the disorder, for mental health professionals and other healers/helpers, for family and friends of survivors, and anyone wanting to get more educated about this topic.
I have actually breathed new life into a blog on this topic that I was writing a few years ago, will eventually transfer from this blog the pieces I have written here about bipolar disorder – but in the last week I have been writing like a house on fire and have put up several new posts, most with lots of fun photos. (I’m not a great photographer yet, but it does get my juices flowing and it’s my commitment to avoid the mind-numbing quality of too many words with not enough images.
The URL for this blog is bipolarintegrity.com. Come check it out. If you find it interesting, there is a button at the top of the right column where you can easily sign up to follow it, so you will know what I’m writing and can catch the posts that interest you. ”Out of site, out of mind.”
Thanks for reading this blog. It’s been a good ride. Be well.